Dear diaries .....
i think i cant take it anymore ...... the relationship between me n u ..... it's complicated .... u care for me n i care for u ..... but i dunnoe wat r u thinking ...... u treat me very nice especially this few weeks when i was in Uni ..... when i'm down ur the 1st to caunsole me ..... i knew its impossible between both of us thats why i draw a line there n not letting myself to cross over n yet now u cross the line ..... i just dunnoe how to reject anymore ....i noe u treat me as a fren ..... but just lyk wat i had always tell u ..... wat u do might let ppl misunderstood u !! n i might feel that u lyk me when u do those things to me ..... i just hope that im thinking too much lah ..... i really cant face it .... haih ..... when can this kind of complicated situation becum simple as the past ???
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dear diaries 9
Dear diaries......
the judgement nite is over ...... wat a relief .... but actually there's still sum unstatisfaction of me towards those 4th year seniors , well in the internet everybody has the right to post wateva they one as long as it didnt breaks the law or touch any sensitive issues ..... my friend posted sum shout out commenting those illegal activities that we are doing n those 4th year seniors r really checking our fb account ...... they can even point out all those juniors that commented sumthing about those activities. and they just scold them in front of everybody ...... at that moment i feel that i dunt really have privacy anymore ...... im scared to release my anger or even my feelings in fb cuz i dunno wat will happen if they read it as everyone of them have our email add ..... omg ..... im lucky that my this blog acc is different from wat i have gave them so i can write very freely here !! haha !!
this week we will have a different task for IO (illegal organization) we have to find other's faculty seniors to sign for us n we have to work together with the fakulti sains kesihatan juniors to do a sketch or dance ( group performance) for our seniors to see ..... again ..... another ways to humillate ourselves in order to entertaint our seniors ...... arrhhhh......
the judgement nite is over ...... wat a relief .... but actually there's still sum unstatisfaction of me towards those 4th year seniors , well in the internet everybody has the right to post wateva they one as long as it didnt breaks the law or touch any sensitive issues ..... my friend posted sum shout out commenting those illegal activities that we are doing n those 4th year seniors r really checking our fb account ...... they can even point out all those juniors that commented sumthing about those activities. and they just scold them in front of everybody ...... at that moment i feel that i dunt really have privacy anymore ...... im scared to release my anger or even my feelings in fb cuz i dunno wat will happen if they read it as everyone of them have our email add ..... omg ..... im lucky that my this blog acc is different from wat i have gave them so i can write very freely here !! haha !!
this week we will have a different task for IO (illegal organization) we have to find other's faculty seniors to sign for us n we have to work together with the fakulti sains kesihatan juniors to do a sketch or dance ( group performance) for our seniors to see ..... again ..... another ways to humillate ourselves in order to entertaint our seniors ...... arrhhhh......
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Dear diaries 8
Dear diaries....
it's been more than 2 weeks that im in a new environment ..... UKM .... actually i dunt really lyk this U cuz everything is in BM ..... plus there's sum stupid rules to follow .... the things that drive me crazy are the course orientation .... its kinda stupid actually but wat we can do is just follow wat we are asked to do ..... just lyk treating a dog .... master call u sit, u sit, master call u run, u run ...... senirors are the master n we r the dogs .... haih ... newbie are always there for seniors to bully .... n yet those seniors are still saying they r protecting us ..... stupid rite ..... calling us to copy n memorize all their personal profile n ask for their signature ...... its a tough job leh ..... we only got 4 days .... each day one hr to minta sign. ..... got 125++ seniors .... where can finish wor ..... haih .....
But actually the program is kinda fun ...... thats when im asking sign from certain seniors .... esp guys ..... they are funny ..... cuz whenever i saw them in faculty they will point themself n ask me whether i still remember their name or not .... n surprisingly i really can remember their name .... wahaha .... maybe becuz they r too funny ..... when i called out their name then they will compliment me haha .... it's fun .... but for girls .... nah .... i dunt lyk .... cuz they very leceh .... call u do this do that .... ask u this ask u that .... then only sign for u .... waste tym nia lah .....
this thursday is the judgement night ..... wat is judgement nite .... well.... if saying it in a gd way its a nite where those seniors from 4th 3rd n 2nd year wanna see our performances n decide who to take as their buddy ..... while say it in a bad way ... its a nite where we newbies hv to embarass ourselves infront of all those seniors in order to entertaint them ..... stupid rite .... haih ... but we cant disobey them .... cuz u wont noe n u wont want to noe the consequences of disobeying them ... haha .....!!
I kinda miss my life in matric .... at there is more free .... who says UNi life is fun .... its not fun ... hearing lecture to lecture 2 chapter in one hr .... can u imagine how fast the speed is .... n we dunt hv any reference also .... haih ... dunnoe how to do my revision also !! so kekxim
it's been more than 2 weeks that im in a new environment ..... UKM .... actually i dunt really lyk this U cuz everything is in BM ..... plus there's sum stupid rules to follow .... the things that drive me crazy are the course orientation .... its kinda stupid actually but wat we can do is just follow wat we are asked to do ..... just lyk treating a dog .... master call u sit, u sit, master call u run, u run ...... senirors are the master n we r the dogs .... haih ... newbie are always there for seniors to bully .... n yet those seniors are still saying they r protecting us ..... stupid rite ..... calling us to copy n memorize all their personal profile n ask for their signature ...... its a tough job leh ..... we only got 4 days .... each day one hr to minta sign. ..... got 125++ seniors .... where can finish wor ..... haih .....
But actually the program is kinda fun ...... thats when im asking sign from certain seniors .... esp guys ..... they are funny ..... cuz whenever i saw them in faculty they will point themself n ask me whether i still remember their name or not .... n surprisingly i really can remember their name .... wahaha .... maybe becuz they r too funny ..... when i called out their name then they will compliment me haha .... it's fun .... but for girls .... nah .... i dunt lyk .... cuz they very leceh .... call u do this do that .... ask u this ask u that .... then only sign for u .... waste tym nia lah .....
this thursday is the judgement night ..... wat is judgement nite .... well.... if saying it in a gd way its a nite where those seniors from 4th 3rd n 2nd year wanna see our performances n decide who to take as their buddy ..... while say it in a bad way ... its a nite where we newbies hv to embarass ourselves infront of all those seniors in order to entertaint them ..... stupid rite .... haih ... but we cant disobey them .... cuz u wont noe n u wont want to noe the consequences of disobeying them ... haha .....!!
I kinda miss my life in matric .... at there is more free .... who says UNi life is fun .... its not fun ... hearing lecture to lecture 2 chapter in one hr .... can u imagine how fast the speed is .... n we dunt hv any reference also .... haih ... dunnoe how to do my revision also !! so kekxim
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Dear diaries 7
dear diaries ......
well .... 2 more days im going to start my new life ..... im really looking forward ..... Uni life .... i hope i can make new frens there .... n i really hope everything will go smoothly ..... no more betraying ... no backstabbing ..... no more bad rumors.... n last but not least ... NO MORE EMOING .... haha ....
Im here to thanks a fren of mine .... i appreciate her help .... really .... I'm happy there's a person there to let me split out things ..... to be my listener ..... thanks a lot ..... i wish that all of my frens can be happy forever .... M can get over from her problem although it might take some tym ... C can be successful .... S can score her examination with flying colours .... haha .....
I wanna apologize to somebody too ... actually i dunt mean to avoid you ..... i really wanna reply ur sms or ur nudge .... but everytym when i reply u wont really reply me back ....its hard for me to reply ur sms but over the other side ur not there waiting for my reply ..... i really dunnoe u ..... u have lots of ppl u can sms with .... so it doesnt matter that i didnt reply ur msg .... u can still find others .... there are dozens of gals waiting for ur msg ..... so dunt scold me for not replying u ..... cuz u always didnt reply me when i reply u ... understand !!! well...... i think u will nvr ever see this post .... just wanna spread out my tak puas hati here !!
well .... 2 more days im going to start my new life ..... im really looking forward ..... Uni life .... i hope i can make new frens there .... n i really hope everything will go smoothly ..... no more betraying ... no backstabbing ..... no more bad rumors.... n last but not least ... NO MORE EMOING .... haha ....
Im here to thanks a fren of mine .... i appreciate her help .... really .... I'm happy there's a person there to let me split out things ..... to be my listener ..... thanks a lot ..... i wish that all of my frens can be happy forever .... M can get over from her problem although it might take some tym ... C can be successful .... S can score her examination with flying colours .... haha .....
I wanna apologize to somebody too ... actually i dunt mean to avoid you ..... i really wanna reply ur sms or ur nudge .... but everytym when i reply u wont really reply me back ....its hard for me to reply ur sms but over the other side ur not there waiting for my reply ..... i really dunnoe u ..... u have lots of ppl u can sms with .... so it doesnt matter that i didnt reply ur msg .... u can still find others .... there are dozens of gals waiting for ur msg ..... so dunt scold me for not replying u ..... cuz u always didnt reply me when i reply u ... understand !!! well...... i think u will nvr ever see this post .... just wanna spread out my tak puas hati here !!
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