抉择

今年里，遇到了好多我意料不到的事....
人生的交叉路口一再的出现，
而每次的我都不知道该如何抉择，
哪一个才是幸福的决择，哪一条路下一站式幸福的，
现在的我只能说，我曾经幸福过，虽然现在累了， 不过我不会忘记我曾感受过的那份感动！
曾经的我发誓要忘了你，我真的尝试过，电话里的简讯甚至连你的电话号码我都删除了......
可是你总是在我要忘了你的时候简讯我.....
我爱..... 可是我们不可能....
你我的关系总是在友达以上， 恋人未满.....
我们的暧昧已经让我受不了自己，
我们简讯内容也更是让我看扁自己.....
我真的好痛苦，想要停止这一切，可是每次你的简讯一来我都会情不自禁的一封接着一封......
我们的暧昧让我忽略了他......
也许我对感情比较迟钝吧，
我真的没想到他会和我告白......
我喜欢我们单纯的友情关系，我们都很谈得来，我不想破坏这份情.....
拒绝了他，我很伤心，因为我伤害了他，看到他在FB的所有shoutout ， 我心痛却也知道这时候给予他安慰其实只是在他的伤口上撒盐....
于是我选择沉默，装傻，装成一切都没发生过，
而他这时却说， 他不会放弃的....
我无语，
真的累了，好多事情要忙，
真的慌了，课业感情都不如意.....

好想对你说 却说不出口

当我想要打电话给你时，你会不会刚好也要打电话给我？

当我想要找你陪我聊天，你会不会刚好也出现在我面前？

当我在无意间想起你时，你会不会也在无意间想起了我？

当我发现我已经爱上你，你的心中是否也有这样的感觉？

看着手机，才发现自己渐渐爱上了手机，

或许说爱上的并不是手机，而是你吧，

因为我知道手上握着的手机只是为你而开机，

也只有收到你的短信才能让我嘴角微微上扬，

沮丧的不是没有收到你所发来的短信，

比这个沮丧的是，当我想要收到你的短信时，

电话响了，可发短信给我的那个人却不是你...

有时候，也会忍不住想要先发短信给你，

但每次都告诉自己，一定不能先发短给你，

发了，就输了，而事实上也真的是如此，

第一封短信发出以后，第二第三封短信也停不下来了，

不是不想等你短信我，而是自己已经控制不了自己，

总会找个理由为向你而发出了一封封的短信...

于是，把自己搞的很忙，以为这样就不会想你，

于是，把电话丢在一边，以为这样就不会去看，

最后才发现，原来无论怎么做，心都在你那里，

因为自己还是会忍不住去拿手机来看一看，

因为自己根本就无法专心把任何一件事情做好...

原来爱上一个人，是由等待他的那一刻起，

等待的无奈不一定是没有得到回复，

等待最大的无奈是你不能让他知道你在等待，

你想让他知道你在等他，但你害怕让他知道你在等他，

你想让他知道你在乎，但你却不敢让他知道你在乎，

因为你知道，谁先在乎，谁就输了...

不找你，不意味着我不在乎，而是想看你有在乎，

不找你，不是怕你不回复我，而是要让你先找我，

不找你，只是怕你会不在乎，所以我假装不在乎,

不找你，不是因为我不爱你，而是因为我在等你...

你不会知道等待一个人是什么样的感觉，

因为我不会让你知道我在等你，

我不怕等你，也不怕你不知道我在等你，

就怕你知道了，却和我说，不要再等我了...

放弃 不放弃

在大学已经一个学期了，
短短的4个月里，
我经历了好多，
开心的， 伤心的， 痛苦的， 难熬的......
他们都是让我逐渐成长的重要成分.....

我喜欢的， 我爱的， 你过得好吗？
喜欢我的， 爱我的， 你会找到更好的
我 真的不值得！

在大学的第一个生日就和考试碰上
做好了没人知道我生日的准备迎接12.00am 的到来....
奇迹却发生了, 谢谢你佳雯， 谢谢你萬霖......
你们的短讯让我好感动！
也谢谢FB 还有陆陆续续祝福我的朋友！
当然最让我意外的是你.....
你竟然知道我的生日,
而且是第三个祝福我的人！
真的很让我惊喜......
这样真的够了，
真的 真的 心满意足了！
虽然不知道我们现在到底是什么关系，
不过我会永远留住那一瞬间的感动......
真的很谢谢你！

给另一个你，
我知道很难.....
不过请不要再继续拒绝我给你的好人卡
请你接受
我真的不想把关心视为一种负担！
我累了， 真的累了
你让我无法专心， 也让我感到害怕！










我到底该放弃 还是 不放弃？

Dear diaries 12

IM STRESSED !!!!
BECUZ OF U ....
BECUZ OF STUDIES .....
NOT ENOUGH TYM FOR ME !!

Dear diaries 11

Dear diaries.....

It's been a while that i didnt update my blog ..... I'm very happy today ..... all my effort of entering n participating the IO ( illegal orientation) is not wasted !! I got a buddy whom i really lyk !! she even bought me tong shui to eat .... haha ..... she's from malacca also n soon she will pass her notes to me !! haha ..... i ady wasted 3 weeks tym in this IO so i have to study harder to catch up my studies which ady left behind a lot !! i need more tym now cuz i still need to practise debate !! can u believe it ? i actually join the debate club .... hahah !! I hope to receive sms or called from the pesta tanglung ppl lah .... i really wanna pass my audition for dancing .... i wanna perfrom on the stage n i wanna learn how to dance !!!!

Dear diaries 10

Dear diaries .....

i think i cant take it anymore ...... the relationship between me n u ..... it's complicated .... u care for me n i care for u ..... but i dunnoe wat r u thinking ...... u treat me very nice especially this few weeks when i was in Uni ..... when i'm down ur the 1st to caunsole me ..... i knew its impossible between both of us thats why i draw a line there n not letting myself to cross over n yet now u cross the line ..... i just dunnoe how to reject anymore ....i noe u treat me as a fren ..... but just lyk wat i had always tell u ..... wat u do might let ppl misunderstood u !! n i might feel that u lyk me when u do those things to me ..... i just hope that im thinking too much lah ..... i really cant face it .... haih ..... when can this kind of complicated situation becum simple as the past ???

Dear diaries 9

Dear diaries......

the judgement nite is over ...... wat a relief .... but actually there's still sum unstatisfaction of me towards those 4th year seniors , well in the internet everybody has the right to post wateva they one as long as it didnt breaks the law or touch any sensitive issues ..... my friend posted sum shout out commenting those illegal activities that we are doing n those 4th year seniors r really checking our fb account ...... they can even point out all those juniors that commented sumthing about those activities. and they just scold them in front of everybody ...... at that moment i feel that i dunt really have privacy anymore ...... im scared to release my anger or even my feelings in fb cuz i dunno wat will happen if they read it as everyone of them have our email add ..... omg ..... im lucky that my this blog acc is different from wat i have gave them so i can write very freely here !! haha !!

this week we will have a different task for IO (illegal organization) we have to find other's faculty seniors to sign for us n we have to work together with the fakulti sains kesihatan juniors to do a sketch or dance ( group performance) for our seniors to see ..... again ..... another ways to humillate ourselves in order to entertaint our seniors ...... arrhhhh......

Dear diaries 8

Dear diaries....

it's been more than 2 weeks that im in a new environment ..... UKM .... actually i dunt really lyk this U cuz everything is in BM ..... plus there's sum stupid rules to follow .... the things that drive me crazy are the course orientation .... its kinda stupid actually but wat we can do is just follow wat we are asked to do ..... just lyk treating a dog .... master call u sit, u sit, master call u run, u run ...... senirors are the master n we r the dogs .... haih ... newbie are always there for seniors to bully .... n yet those seniors are still saying they r protecting us ..... stupid rite ..... calling us to copy n memorize all their personal profile n ask for their signature ...... its a tough job leh ..... we only got 4 days .... each day one hr to minta sign. ..... got 125++ seniors .... where can finish wor ..... haih .....

But actually the program is kinda fun ...... thats when im asking sign from certain seniors .... esp guys ..... they are funny ..... cuz whenever i saw them in faculty they will point themself n ask me whether i still remember their name or not .... n surprisingly i really can remember their name .... wahaha .... maybe becuz they r too funny ..... when i called out their name then they will compliment me haha .... it's fun .... but for girls .... nah .... i dunt lyk .... cuz they very leceh .... call u do this do that .... ask u this ask u that .... then only sign for u .... waste tym nia lah .....

this thursday is the judgement night ..... wat is judgement nite .... well.... if saying it in a gd way its a nite where those seniors from 4th 3rd n 2nd year wanna see our performances n decide who to take as their buddy ..... while say it in a bad way ... its a nite where we newbies hv to embarass ourselves infront of all those seniors in order to entertaint them ..... stupid rite .... haih ... but we cant disobey them .... cuz u wont noe n u wont want to noe the consequences of disobeying them ... haha .....!!

I kinda miss my life in matric .... at there is more free .... who says UNi life is fun .... its not fun ... hearing lecture to lecture 2 chapter in one hr .... can u imagine how fast the speed is .... n we dunt hv any reference also .... haih ... dunnoe how to do my revision also !! so kekxim

Dear diaries 7

dear diaries ......

well .... 2 more days im going to start my new life ..... im really looking forward ..... Uni life .... i hope i can make new frens there .... n i really hope everything will go smoothly ..... no more betraying ... no backstabbing ..... no more bad rumors.... n last but not least ... NO MORE EMOING .... haha ....

Im here to thanks a fren of mine .... i appreciate her help .... really .... I'm happy there's a person there to let me split out things ..... to be my listener ..... thanks a lot ..... i wish that all of my frens can be happy forever .... M can get over from her problem although it might take some tym ... C can be successful .... S can score her examination with flying colours .... haha .....

I wanna apologize to somebody too ... actually i dunt mean to avoid you ..... i really wanna reply ur sms or ur nudge .... but everytym when i reply u wont really reply me back ....its hard for me to reply ur sms but over the other side ur not there waiting for my reply ..... i really dunnoe u ..... u have lots of ppl u can sms with .... so it doesnt matter that i didnt reply ur msg .... u can still find others .... there are dozens of gals waiting for ur msg ..... so dunt scold me for not replying u ..... cuz u always didnt reply me when i reply u ... understand !!! well...... i think u will nvr ever see this post .... just wanna spread out my tak puas hati here !!

Dear diaries 6

Dear diaries ......

today im gonna reveal the real me ..... the emo side of me .... yesterday was a very complicated day .... im happy n sad /emo at the same tym ..... yesterday ..... i accidentally knew about the truth that i wish i will nvr ever noe if im given a choice !! it hurts ..... it really hurts .... it makes me dunt believe frenship anymore .... Y ...? Y must i know this ugly truth ! I'm suppose to enter U with all those gd memories with u .... but now .... u spoil it ...... i wanna be clear in my diaries ..... but can i really do it ....? im scared .... n i dunt have to confident to do it ....there are still ppl who spread bad rumors about me ..... it really hurts me .... it's tired to always keep things to myself ..... sumtym i really hope got some one that can let me spread out everything inside my heart n just let me cry out loud for an hour or even more ...... the person i hope for do appear but y must it be him ? y is he always the 1st to notice im sad im emo im mad n wat so eva ....... n he's always the only one to comfort me ..... telling me dunt be sad dunt be angry ..... n smsed me those lame jokes to make me smile ..... It's gd that there is still such ppl staying by my side ..... but ..... haih .....!!

keeping secrets aren't easy ...... im sick of keeping things to myself .... sometimes i wanted to tell him wat happen but i just cant express it out ..... M have C and K , who do i have ? S ? i noe S well ..... telling her these things will only make her to suffer .... so i cant really tell her sumtym .... but she's really gd to me !! i luv u S ..... i think u r the only close fren left to me ..... the only person in malacca that i can still chat for a long tym without stopping !! i appreciate it !!

I remembered i told K & M that if anything happen u can always talk to me ..... somehow i wish they will also said back that if u got anything we r always there to talk to u ...... I'm always the gd listener n a gd counselor ..... but i need a listener too ..... this is the 1st tym I"m writing so many emo stuff .... with 2 roll of tears cuming out from my eyes .... I seek for K's help be4 when im in matric ..... i dunnoe y i will sms her ..... but when i on my phone .... she's the only one in the contact list that i can smsed ..... i dunnoe wat happen to me ..... at the tym my only fren in matric left me ..... it's a tough nite for me ..... i cried for the whole night untill my roomate come n comfort me ..... i smsed her n spread my feelings out ...... actually kinda sad to disturb her ..... I'm sorry again K .... when facing ezam stress also .... i smsed her sumthing stupid ..... why m i always sms her i also dunnoe ..... maybe i trust her .... maybe i always help her n now i wanted her to help me too ..... I'm really sry to always disturb her ..... haih .....

也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药.....

now i only now how hurt is this lyrics ........ time can cure sum of the problem im facing .... but it also leads me to another disaster ...... from the ugly truth i noe yesterday ..... maybe i should stop going KTV ..... singing suppose to be a great thing which bring good memories to me .... but now it changes ...... it's no more happy memories .... ！！

Dear diaries 5

Dear diaries .....

I'm here again to update my blog ...... arh .... went for medical checkup just now ...... n i got shocked at there ..... I'm only 150cm ....omg ..... so short ..... omg ..... haih ..... n i gain weight ady .... 45.5 kg .... in just 2 months tym i gain 1.5kg .... omg ..... i need to control my diet ady lah ..... must lose weight ..... stupid medical checkup .... it let be realise im SHORT N FAT ..... just lyk dwarf !! haih .....

this checkup requires to do urine test .... so .... haha .... i hv to pee to the correct place ..... hahaha ....sounds very geli rite ..... hv to take the small bottle .... aim to that side n start collecting ur own urine ..... haha ..... the doctor said : well..... ur body is healthy .... ur respiratory system , excretory system , nervous system all normal .... ( of cuz normal la .... if nervous system abnormal i wont be here loh ....) but u have a very concentrated urine ...... so drink more water .... then i answered : haha .... i noe my urine is concentrated cuz for the whole morning i didnt drink water .....i went for the X ray early in the morning n staright away cum here so no water to drink ..... then the doctor laugh .... haha ...

another funny thing happen was at the radiotherapy center at putra hospital where i have my X ray test ...... the therapist asked me some questions which i think its funny .... 1st she asked how old m i .... i answered : 19 .... then she asked when did ur period come ? well.... i fee weird when she asked lyk that cuz wats the relationship of when ur menstruation come with this X ray thingy .... but i answered : form 1 .... then she smile n correct her question again .... the question is when did ur last period come ? ... then i was lyk ..... ^O^ I answered : last month .... then therapist asked again : u confirm u r not pregnant ? .... i was lyk ....@@ of cuz im not pregnant lah ..... haiyo ... pregnant woman knot do Xray wan mah ..... haiyo .... plus my period got come loh .... haiyo.... swt man ......

after that went to open bank account .... Bank ISLAM .... omg .... so many ppl queuing to open account ..... plus I saw a few seniors from pay fong 2 wan ..... i noe them but they dunnoe me .... haha .... they going the same U as me .... omg .... i cant really believe it .... haha ... now i really feel F6 is a waste of tym .... cuz those seniors going to be coursemate with me .... wahaha ....it's weird dude !!but hor .... this bank islam very small leh .... n whole malacca only one branch ... omg .... so squeeze inside .... haha .... u can see everybody holding the application form n starting to find a place to fill up the form .... luckily im smart enough to bring a pen myself ... no need to wait for the bank punya pen .... hahaha .....!!

Dear diaries 4

Dear diaries .....

well..... im starting a new life soon ....going for Uni for my tertiary education .... and there's a lot to prepare ..... i wanted to bring everything NEW to my U but i cant afford it ..... haih ... too bad rite ? Today i packed sum of my clothes to UKM according to the dress code they given which are : 2 or 3 BLUE is a must, for entering lecture hall ... smart casual is ok .... SMART CASUAL as in collar T with long pants ( jeans r not so allowed according to my senior ) ..... n here's my packing result ..... i search for my whole cupboard n i noticed that i dunt have any suitable collar blouse to wear for lecture .... cuz all my blouse are round neck wan plus others are sleeveless ..... others collar T r my PJ attire at kmp ..... hahaha .... and for long pants ..... well.... i only have jeansssss...... omg ..... haha .... for the BLUE kurung .... i need to buy it .... so means i need to buy clothessssss for my Uni life .....

besides packing, i have to go for medical checkup 2mr .... haih .... why does this U need to do medical check up .... it's a waste of money .... need to pay for X ray lagi .... haih .... i need lots of money now !!!! summore i think UKM is the only U that need to do medical checkup ..... haih ..... it's unnecessary lah .... waste my money only !! I have to open another bank account again ..... this tym is bank islam .... haha .....i think i got lots of account ady ... my godness .....

Dear diaries 3

Dear diaries ......

Yesterday i spend a nite at JY new hs alone ..... at 1st i tot she will be going to stay at her new hs but she ends up slping in her old hs .... so i slept in her room alone .... im lucky that i brought my lappy with me for the entertainment at there .... n today we celebrated grandma's birthday buy having a BIG FAMILY steamboat lunch n dinner .... haha .... its fun that we ate the whole day .......haha ...

my AS fren just went back a few hours ago .... feel sry to him as he come malacca to meet us n i just got to go out with him for one day ..... hope he enjoy his trip well ..... he's a weird fren i think ..... weird for me .... haha .... 1st person i met that lyks to go museum ..... haha ....he left a parcel at rx's hs n that 's for me .... haih ... i didnt even buy things for him n yet he bought me sumthing ..... i feel so bad lah ..... kekxim .....he's really a nice fren .... haha .... kmp's life are the best esp when we r preparing things n performances for the pesta yuen celebration ..... i just cant forget those sweet memories ..... n i missed it so much !!

today i read sum article from FB .... they r quite meaningful for me ....well...sumtym i just hate that ppl's article can reflect my life .....I'm in a dilemma now ..... shall I keep avoiding his msg ? shall i reply it ? but i really dislyk the feeling that when i reply his msg n he didnt reply me at all ..... that feeling sucksssss ..... i would rather avoid him n let him scold me for not replying his msg during the next tym he sms me ..... haih ..... he's going um n I'm going ukm .... 2 schools are quite near to each other .... haha .... he still owe me 1 starbucks n 1 cornetto ice cream haha ..... maybe i should change the cornetto to baskin robbin since he's damn rich !!it's a gd chance to take back my starbucks n ice cream .... half of the kmp chinese students are going um n ukm .... haha .... I'm looking forward for another kmp-ians reunion in KL .... it will be fun !!

Dear diaries 2

Dear diaries ....

It's been a while that i didnt update my blog .... I planned to update it everyday but it seems that i failed to do so ..... sumtym I'm lazy to post wateva happen to me....sumtym i feel i cant really express myself out properly ..... why is it so .... well maybe its becuz there's a lot of things happen all in a tym that i cant really remember it ..... or im escaping from facing the problem that i hv to solve ....

I'm being offered to go UKM to further my studies .... taking the course that i wanted so much ..... this is the 1st tym that i noe whats the taste of tears of joy ..... it's sweet !! haha ..... It's lucky for me to hv the course i want ..... as sum of my fren only got the 4th or 5th choice which are less prefered ....n now I'm a step closer to my dream !! may god bless me !!

Dear diaries 1

Dear diaries ...
I've decided to change my blog appearance .... changing a new layout , a new background colour and a new theme ... actually i wanted to close my this blog n start with a new blog page , but it will be a waste since most of my stories are here.

Time flies. it's ady half a year n i discovered that this year there's ntg special about me ....although i scored my examination well but it doesnt make me happy at all ... i dunnoe wat's the reason that i'm not happy with my FLAT ... haih ... coming back from perlis suppose to be a great thing but now i felt that staying at perlis is FUN except all those racist discrimination.... i'm sad that my relationship between certain frenz had changed .... we r not that close anymore ....well, it's gd to say that luckily i still hv certain ppl as my so called "close fren " ..... well.... r they really my close fren ? thats a question to me also .... i cant confirm they are really my close fren or not ... but untill now we still keep in touch .... nobody call me to hang out with them .... well ... all i did was just go out with ah ne .... n it's only one tym !! ah ne .... thanks a lot ...it's fun to hang out with u after ur ezam ...i'm looking forward to hang out with cy too ... haha ... sing K ....

there's still a lot of things i wanna spread out at here .....sumtym being a scorpion is not that easy .... haih .... !!

一个人很好！！

街 挤满了欢笑.....
不适合眼泪来凑热闹
跑 不停寻找.....
一个无人的转角
不优雅的时候 还是一个人就好

爱 什么时候能说退就退？
我松开手， 回忆却没能随风飘走......
为什么 越相信谁能依靠
越换来一次次的灵魂寂寥？
有没有永远不会再让心绝望的解药？

每一天都有一千一万个选择， 而我做的每一个决定是对的吗？
照着镜子， 我看到了自己的徬徨和疑惑！！
欢呼 冲动 落泪 沮丧 欢乐 愤怒
哪一个才是真正的我？都是 也都不是 .....
无论我是谁，能确定的是，
我正为成为自己的路上一步一步地走着....
没有人是不会变的 我也不例外，
好的我 坏的我 都在成长
而我等待的又是怎样的自己？？

.. .-- .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . - ..- --. ---

Some say it’s not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen
When you have a fight with her
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again

To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Trying to hide

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy
Now I have no more tears left to cry
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
But .. .-- .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . - ..- --. --- !!

世界上最遥远的距离不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起，
而是明明知道无法抵挡对你的思念，
却还是故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心上！！

无标题！！

“娘” ，“干吗" , “没事，只是想撒娇！” ，“无聊” ，
这是我和他sms时必说的对话，
他为什么叫我娘？
哈哈， 想起来很好笑也很讽刺，
他说在我身上找到妈妈疼儿子的感觉，
在我看来也许是他每次感情受挫的时候都回来找我聊天寻求安慰！
而我总是很自然的给了他想要的答案....
做别人的感情顾问真的很累，
有时候真的不想干涉他俩的事，
可是他总是把我拉进他的感情生活里，
我清楚他是个怎样的人，
但是我总是没办法拒绝他，
我讨厌他的甜言蜜语，讨厌他的吊儿郎当，
讨厌他总是知道我心里在想什么！！

“你去忙吧，我不想打扰你！”
这是我想与他结束对话时长套用的句子！
而他的回答总是“你没打扰我，是我先找你聊天的，所以我现在很多时间”， “我其实并不忙”， “在聊一会儿啦！”.....
而我最终还是被他挽留下来继续聊天！
记得考试时的study week 我几乎每天都在和他sms， 有时还聊到半夜2点多！
每次都是我喊他去读书时他才乖乖的不来找我，

他从来都不叫我的名字，
有时我曾怀疑它到底懂不懂我的名字，
他都叫我“蛇，蛇妖， 蛇精，老妈， 娘，蛇哥...."
而我总叫他“死老虎，乖儿子，不孝子...."
很奇怪的相处方式， 不过也很特别！！

离开学校后，
我们还有联络，
不过，这次我下定决心要淡忘他，
所以加油吧俐雯，不要每次回他的短讯！！
也不要在喜欢他，
虽然他曾是在你最潦倒的时候挺身而出救你的那位，
虽然他曾是在你难过时第一个发现及给予安慰的那位，

飞翔@坚强

天气,冷暖不确定
每个人都在人海里
相遇,总是没道理
弄错后,轻轻说对不起
没关系,不论失去了什么
都没痕迹
每一次,让泪水流回心
去灌溉梦想开出奇迹
我要的坚强,不是谁的肩膀
怀抱是个不能停留的地方
这世界多拥挤,就有多匆忙
用所有的寂寞时光给自己鼓掌
我要的飞翔,不是借双翅膀
自由是个不能代替的远方
用旅途的孤单,来收获成长
直到遇见了你一起分享

在XX的面子书上发现的一篇文章！！

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢的人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中的任何一种，
彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别的朋友……
也许是为了朋友之间的义气，不能归属。
也许是为了顾及家人的意见，不能归位。
也许是为了自己的前程，不能承诺。
也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。
也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线……
不过即使没在一起，
彼此仍能找到塌实的感觉，
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情的关系。
但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞的满满的……
即使不能彼此名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
彼此有喜欢的人，口头上会说不吃醋，
心里却会觉得胃疼……
对方遇到困难时，
会尽全力伸出援助之手，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
对方生病了，
会缴尽脑汁找药方，
恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁……
每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。
一开始可能不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
宁愿这样关心对方的心情，
总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害……
做不成男女朋友，
当个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢
很多的感情，
都败在了现实的面前……
友情可以演变成为爱情，
爱情最终进化成为亲情，
彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情……
人生不过百年……
能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩，
能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手，
能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开，
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！
珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉

X XXXX XXXXXX

讨厌自己为什么信任你，
讨厌自己受到你的短讯还那么开心，
讨厌自己对你的期望，
越来越讨厌自己了啦！
我的天！

晴天霹雳

今天收到一则晴天霹雳的消息，
他和她分手了，
这一次真的分手了，
我该高兴还是伤心？
我不知道在......
两个都是我的朋友，
搞到分手的地步时我不想看到的
为什么分手？ 我这样问他... 他说她无理取闹
为什么分手？ 我这样问她... 她说不知道....
我有种被背叛的感觉，
不是说很爱对方吗？
haih ！！
本以为时间是治疗伤口的唯一方法....
本以为伤口已经愈合，
谁知一切都是我的错觉，
结疤了的伤口，
就在今天再一次裂开....
鲜红的血液再一次涌出来了！！
这一次的伤口不知又要多少时间来愈合！！

.....

当局者迷，
旁观者清！！

花花公子！

原来你说的话也不能信！
我不会再关心你，
你让我对你太失望了！
要你进化成痴情王子，
我还真是异想天开 ！

....

无法相信，
马先生，
我以为你很痴情，
原来男生都一个样！！
不能相信！！

unbelievable

晴天霹雳，
你们真的在一起吗？
我真的不敢相信，
一个已经有男朋友，
一个也有暗恋的对象，
到最后却走在一起，
事情来得太突然，
即使分手了，
真的能在一天内接受新的恋情吗？

？？？？

他们的问题解决了吗？
对不起没能帮上你们，
时间能解决一切，
希望你们能够和好，
记得我说的话，
如果真的决心不要伤害你现在的女朋友，
就要耐心的等待她父母同意的那天！！　
儿子，
娘支持你！！　

他们

在这鸟不拉屎，狗不生蛋的玻璃市!!
让我遇到他们....
拥有怪癖的弟弟...
非常贴心的哥哥....
和超级有钱的我儿子!!
3个男生
拥有不同的个性，
怪癖弟弟，
我最受不了的人，
比我还怪癖一百倍!!
他是个超鸡婆的男生，
又很怕输!!
而且还很任性!!
有足了做别人弟弟的特征！
贴心的哥哥，
个头高高的，
有190公分咯!!
喜欢他好好先生的脾气，
不过他和我弟弟竟是死党!!
脾气好的哥哥对上脾气倔的弟弟，
哈哈....
到我儿子了，
他是个特别的人，
一开始我并不喜欢他，
因为他是那种我一直以来最讨厌的花花公子，
经过缘圆，
让我更了解他，
他是个暴发户的儿子，
认识他后会发现他拥有所有花痴喜欢和迷恋的特征，
第一，有钱
第二，长得还算帅，（其实我觉得不帅不过大家都说帅）
第三，很会跟人搭讪，
第四，体贴
他是个可怕的人物，
想象一下，从柔佛到泰国他驾车只需5小时！！
夸张吧....
更劲爆的是他竟然承认他真的是花花公子，
以前追女生只是追爽，
我的天，
和他sms真的是浪费时间！！
花花大少的他坦言现在已后悔了....
希望他真的能进化成痴情王子吧....
不然他现在的女朋友真的倒大霉了！！
至于他为什么是我儿子，
哈哈..... 理由很烂
因为考试时他经常sms 烦我，
所以我就骂他， 叫他去读书，
因为这样被他说有种被妈妈关心的感觉，
就这样变成他妈了！！
我的天！！

缘 圆

缘份的缘让我们有缘认识在一起,
团圆的圆则给了我们在这个大日子圆声圆席...
--缘--团--圆--
没了缘，何能圆。。。。
想起缘，记起圆。。。。
有了缘，方能圆。。。。
谢谢缘，谢谢圆。。。

缘圆...
具有意义的两个字,
是我在玻璃市-预科学院新春晚会的主题!!
透过它让我了解...
筹委一个如此大型的活动是多么辛苦...
没有老师的监督....
完完全全靠的是自己和朋友!!
筹备过程真的很辛苦...
但大家都喜欢这忙碌的感觉....
因为一班华人在一起的感觉真的很棒!!
台上十分钟, 台下十年功!!
我意识到了这句话的真实性!!...
从筹备晚会的两个月....
大家忙着练习, 制做道具, 筹募资金....
到台上短短的两小时表演....

前三个星期对我来说真的好累....!!
从来没这么累过...
但却累得好开心....
每天8点上课, 4点放学, 430 练习话剧及委员开会....
每天都要忙到半夜1点才有时间做功课!!
这样的生活重复了2个星期...
2月6日...
辛苦筹备的晚会终于掀开序幕...!!
一班华人早上6时就到礼堂进行布置....
一直到下午4时才能休息...
傍晚6时... 所有工作人员（我们）都开始忙了起来！
晚会终于开始了..
老师和同学的反应都超级热烈....
坚叫声不断!!
真的超感动的....
没想到马来人都这么喜欢我们的表演!!
我们加了很多华人元素进去.....
本来还怕他家不喜欢....
没想到大家都能接受!!
老师们看完表演后更是笑得合不拢嘴!!

太开心了!!!!!
那天的感动真的难以形容!!
我只能在说....
没了缘，何能圆....
想起缘，记起圆....
有了缘，方能圆....
谢谢缘，谢谢圆...

我会记得....
珍惜....　
这份缘...
因为....
它让我们在此团圆!!

ＰＳ　赶快让我拿到缘圆的ＤＶＤ...　我要看看当晚我的表现如何!!
　　　华人都不能看表演...　因为....　大家都是表演者!!
　　　除了几个不合群的华人...

I'm lost

I'm lost ....
lost in this world ...
FUTURE is miserable ....
wat I decides ...
wat I choose ....
I cant make any decision ....
time flies .....
wat m i going to do ?

frens !!

Friendship is unnecessary...
like philosophy...
like art...
like the universe itself (for God did not need to create)......
It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.

courses that i choose !!

1st choice : pharmacy UM
2nd choice : pharmacy UKM
3rd choice : radiotherapist UM
4th choice : radiotherapist UKM
5th choice : physiotherapist UKM
6th choice : optometrist UKM
7th choice : audiologist UKM
8th choice : actuarial science UM

but the most i wanna get is PHARMACY USM .....