今年里，遇到了好多我意料不到的事....
人生的交叉路口一再的出现，
而每次的我都不知道该如何抉择，
哪一个才是幸福的决择，哪一条路下一站式幸福的，
现在的我只能说，我曾经幸福过，虽然现在累了， 不过我不会忘记我曾感受过的那份感动！
曾经的我发誓要忘了你，我真的尝试过，电话里的简讯甚至连你的电话号码我都删除了......
可是你总是在我要忘了你的时候简讯我.....
我爱..... 可是我们不可能....
你我的关系总是在友达以上， 恋人未满.....
我们的暧昧已经让我受不了自己，
我们简讯内容也更是让我看扁自己.....
我真的好痛苦，想要停止这一切，可是每次你的简讯一来我都会情不自禁的一封接着一封......
我们的暧昧让我忽略了他......
也许我对感情比较迟钝吧，
我真的没想到他会和我告白......
我喜欢我们单纯的友情关系，我们都很谈得来，我不想破坏这份情.....
拒绝了他，我很伤心，因为我伤害了他，看到他在FB的所有shoutout ， 我心痛却也知道这时候给予他安慰其实只是在他的伤口上撒盐....
于是我选择沉默，装傻，装成一切都没发生过，
而他这时却说， 他不会放弃的....
我无语，
真的累了，好多事情要忙，
真的慌了，课业感情都不如意.....
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
好想对你说 却说不出口
当我想要打电话给你时，你会不会刚好也要打电话给我？
当我想要找你陪我聊天，你会不会刚好也出现在我面前？
当我在无意间想起你时，你会不会也在无意间想起了我？
当我发现我已经爱上你，你的心中是否也有这样的感觉？
看着手机，才发现自己渐渐爱上了手机，
或许说爱上的并不是手机，而是你吧，
因为我知道手上握着的手机只是为你而开机，
也只有收到你的短信才能让我嘴角微微上扬，
沮丧的不是没有收到你所发来的短信，
比这个沮丧的是，当我想要收到你的短信时，
电话响了，可发短信给我的那个人却不是你...
有时候，也会忍不住想要先发短信给你，
但每次都告诉自己，一定不能先发短给你，
发了，就输了，而事实上也真的是如此，
第一封短信发出以后，第二第三封短信也停不下来了，
不是不想等你短信我，而是自己已经控制不了自己，
总会找个理由为向你而发出了一封封的短信...
于是，把自己搞的很忙，以为这样就不会想你，
于是，把电话丢在一边，以为这样就不会去看，
最后才发现，原来无论怎么做，心都在你那里，
因为自己还是会忍不住去拿手机来看一看，
因为自己根本就无法专心把任何一件事情做好...
原来爱上一个人，是由等待他的那一刻起，
等待的无奈不一定是没有得到回复，
等待最大的无奈是你不能让他知道你在等待，
你想让他知道你在等他，但你害怕让他知道你在等他，
你想让他知道你在乎，但你却不敢让他知道你在乎，
因为你知道，谁先在乎，谁就输了...
不找你，不意味着我不在乎，而是想看你有在乎，
不找你，不是怕你不回复我，而是要让你先找我，
不找你，只是怕你会不在乎，所以我假装不在乎,
不找你，不是因为我不爱你，而是因为我在等你...
你不会知道等待一个人是什么样的感觉，
因为我不会让你知道我在等你，
我不怕等你，也不怕你不知道我在等你，
就怕你知道了，却和我说，不要再等我了...
Thursday, November 11, 2010
放弃 不放弃
在大学已经一个学期了，
短短的4个月里，
我经历了好多，
开心的， 伤心的， 痛苦的， 难熬的......
他们都是让我逐渐成长的重要成分.....
我喜欢的， 我爱的， 你过得好吗？
喜欢我的， 爱我的， 你会找到更好的
我 真的不值得！
在大学的第一个生日就和考试碰上
做好了没人知道我生日的准备迎接12.00am 的到来....
奇迹却发生了, 谢谢你佳雯， 谢谢你萬霖......
你们的短讯让我好感动！
也谢谢FB 还有陆陆续续祝福我的朋友！
当然最让我意外的是你.....
你竟然知道我的生日,
而且是第三个祝福我的人！
真的很让我惊喜......
这样真的够了，
真的 真的 心满意足了！
虽然不知道我们现在到底是什么关系，
不过我会永远留住那一瞬间的感动......
真的很谢谢你！
给另一个你，
我知道很难.....
不过请不要再继续拒绝我给你的好人卡
请你接受
我真的不想把关心视为一种负担！
我累了， 真的累了
你让我无法专心， 也让我感到害怕！
我到底该放弃 还是 不放弃？
短短的4个月里，
我经历了好多，
开心的， 伤心的， 痛苦的， 难熬的......
他们都是让我逐渐成长的重要成分.....
我喜欢的， 我爱的， 你过得好吗？
喜欢我的， 爱我的， 你会找到更好的
我 真的不值得！
在大学的第一个生日就和考试碰上
做好了没人知道我生日的准备迎接12.00am 的到来....
奇迹却发生了, 谢谢你佳雯， 谢谢你萬霖......
你们的短讯让我好感动！
也谢谢FB 还有陆陆续续祝福我的朋友！
当然最让我意外的是你.....
你竟然知道我的生日,
而且是第三个祝福我的人！
真的很让我惊喜......
这样真的够了，
真的 真的 心满意足了！
虽然不知道我们现在到底是什么关系，
不过我会永远留住那一瞬间的感动......
真的很谢谢你！
给另一个你，
我知道很难.....
不过请不要再继续拒绝我给你的好人卡
请你接受
我真的不想把关心视为一种负担！
我累了， 真的累了
你让我无法专心， 也让我感到害怕！
我到底该放弃 还是 不放弃？
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Dear diaries 11
Dear diaries.....
It's been a while that i didnt update my blog ..... I'm very happy today ..... all my effort of entering n participating the IO ( illegal orientation) is not wasted !! I got a buddy whom i really lyk !! she even bought me tong shui to eat .... haha ..... she's from malacca also n soon she will pass her notes to me !! haha ..... i ady wasted 3 weeks tym in this IO so i have to study harder to catch up my studies which ady left behind a lot !! i need more tym now cuz i still need to practise debate !! can u believe it ? i actually join the debate club .... hahah !! I hope to receive sms or called from the pesta tanglung ppl lah .... i really wanna pass my audition for dancing .... i wanna perfrom on the stage n i wanna learn how to dance !!!!
It's been a while that i didnt update my blog ..... I'm very happy today ..... all my effort of entering n participating the IO ( illegal orientation) is not wasted !! I got a buddy whom i really lyk !! she even bought me tong shui to eat .... haha ..... she's from malacca also n soon she will pass her notes to me !! haha ..... i ady wasted 3 weeks tym in this IO so i have to study harder to catch up my studies which ady left behind a lot !! i need more tym now cuz i still need to practise debate !! can u believe it ? i actually join the debate club .... hahah !! I hope to receive sms or called from the pesta tanglung ppl lah .... i really wanna pass my audition for dancing .... i wanna perfrom on the stage n i wanna learn how to dance !!!!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Dear diaries 10
Dear diaries .....
i think i cant take it anymore ...... the relationship between me n u ..... it's complicated .... u care for me n i care for u ..... but i dunnoe wat r u thinking ...... u treat me very nice especially this few weeks when i was in Uni ..... when i'm down ur the 1st to caunsole me ..... i knew its impossible between both of us thats why i draw a line there n not letting myself to cross over n yet now u cross the line ..... i just dunnoe how to reject anymore ....i noe u treat me as a fren ..... but just lyk wat i had always tell u ..... wat u do might let ppl misunderstood u !! n i might feel that u lyk me when u do those things to me ..... i just hope that im thinking too much lah ..... i really cant face it .... haih ..... when can this kind of complicated situation becum simple as the past ???
i think i cant take it anymore ...... the relationship between me n u ..... it's complicated .... u care for me n i care for u ..... but i dunnoe wat r u thinking ...... u treat me very nice especially this few weeks when i was in Uni ..... when i'm down ur the 1st to caunsole me ..... i knew its impossible between both of us thats why i draw a line there n not letting myself to cross over n yet now u cross the line ..... i just dunnoe how to reject anymore ....i noe u treat me as a fren ..... but just lyk wat i had always tell u ..... wat u do might let ppl misunderstood u !! n i might feel that u lyk me when u do those things to me ..... i just hope that im thinking too much lah ..... i really cant face it .... haih ..... when can this kind of complicated situation becum simple as the past ???
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dear diaries 9
Dear diaries......
the judgement nite is over ...... wat a relief .... but actually there's still sum unstatisfaction of me towards those 4th year seniors , well in the internet everybody has the right to post wateva they one as long as it didnt breaks the law or touch any sensitive issues ..... my friend posted sum shout out commenting those illegal activities that we are doing n those 4th year seniors r really checking our fb account ...... they can even point out all those juniors that commented sumthing about those activities. and they just scold them in front of everybody ...... at that moment i feel that i dunt really have privacy anymore ...... im scared to release my anger or even my feelings in fb cuz i dunno wat will happen if they read it as everyone of them have our email add ..... omg ..... im lucky that my this blog acc is different from wat i have gave them so i can write very freely here !! haha !!
this week we will have a different task for IO (illegal organization) we have to find other's faculty seniors to sign for us n we have to work together with the fakulti sains kesihatan juniors to do a sketch or dance ( group performance) for our seniors to see ..... again ..... another ways to humillate ourselves in order to entertaint our seniors ...... arrhhhh......
the judgement nite is over ...... wat a relief .... but actually there's still sum unstatisfaction of me towards those 4th year seniors , well in the internet everybody has the right to post wateva they one as long as it didnt breaks the law or touch any sensitive issues ..... my friend posted sum shout out commenting those illegal activities that we are doing n those 4th year seniors r really checking our fb account ...... they can even point out all those juniors that commented sumthing about those activities. and they just scold them in front of everybody ...... at that moment i feel that i dunt really have privacy anymore ...... im scared to release my anger or even my feelings in fb cuz i dunno wat will happen if they read it as everyone of them have our email add ..... omg ..... im lucky that my this blog acc is different from wat i have gave them so i can write very freely here !! haha !!
this week we will have a different task for IO (illegal organization) we have to find other's faculty seniors to sign for us n we have to work together with the fakulti sains kesihatan juniors to do a sketch or dance ( group performance) for our seniors to see ..... again ..... another ways to humillate ourselves in order to entertaint our seniors ...... arrhhhh......
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Dear diaries 8
Dear diaries....
it's been more than 2 weeks that im in a new environment ..... UKM .... actually i dunt really lyk this U cuz everything is in BM ..... plus there's sum stupid rules to follow .... the things that drive me crazy are the course orientation .... its kinda stupid actually but wat we can do is just follow wat we are asked to do ..... just lyk treating a dog .... master call u sit, u sit, master call u run, u run ...... senirors are the master n we r the dogs .... haih ... newbie are always there for seniors to bully .... n yet those seniors are still saying they r protecting us ..... stupid rite ..... calling us to copy n memorize all their personal profile n ask for their signature ...... its a tough job leh ..... we only got 4 days .... each day one hr to minta sign. ..... got 125++ seniors .... where can finish wor ..... haih .....
But actually the program is kinda fun ...... thats when im asking sign from certain seniors .... esp guys ..... they are funny ..... cuz whenever i saw them in faculty they will point themself n ask me whether i still remember their name or not .... n surprisingly i really can remember their name .... wahaha .... maybe becuz they r too funny ..... when i called out their name then they will compliment me haha .... it's fun .... but for girls .... nah .... i dunt lyk .... cuz they very leceh .... call u do this do that .... ask u this ask u that .... then only sign for u .... waste tym nia lah .....
this thursday is the judgement night ..... wat is judgement nite .... well.... if saying it in a gd way its a nite where those seniors from 4th 3rd n 2nd year wanna see our performances n decide who to take as their buddy ..... while say it in a bad way ... its a nite where we newbies hv to embarass ourselves infront of all those seniors in order to entertaint them ..... stupid rite .... haih ... but we cant disobey them .... cuz u wont noe n u wont want to noe the consequences of disobeying them ... haha .....!!
I kinda miss my life in matric .... at there is more free .... who says UNi life is fun .... its not fun ... hearing lecture to lecture 2 chapter in one hr .... can u imagine how fast the speed is .... n we dunt hv any reference also .... haih ... dunnoe how to do my revision also !! so kekxim
it's been more than 2 weeks that im in a new environment ..... UKM .... actually i dunt really lyk this U cuz everything is in BM ..... plus there's sum stupid rules to follow .... the things that drive me crazy are the course orientation .... its kinda stupid actually but wat we can do is just follow wat we are asked to do ..... just lyk treating a dog .... master call u sit, u sit, master call u run, u run ...... senirors are the master n we r the dogs .... haih ... newbie are always there for seniors to bully .... n yet those seniors are still saying they r protecting us ..... stupid rite ..... calling us to copy n memorize all their personal profile n ask for their signature ...... its a tough job leh ..... we only got 4 days .... each day one hr to minta sign. ..... got 125++ seniors .... where can finish wor ..... haih .....
But actually the program is kinda fun ...... thats when im asking sign from certain seniors .... esp guys ..... they are funny ..... cuz whenever i saw them in faculty they will point themself n ask me whether i still remember their name or not .... n surprisingly i really can remember their name .... wahaha .... maybe becuz they r too funny ..... when i called out their name then they will compliment me haha .... it's fun .... but for girls .... nah .... i dunt lyk .... cuz they very leceh .... call u do this do that .... ask u this ask u that .... then only sign for u .... waste tym nia lah .....
this thursday is the judgement night ..... wat is judgement nite .... well.... if saying it in a gd way its a nite where those seniors from 4th 3rd n 2nd year wanna see our performances n decide who to take as their buddy ..... while say it in a bad way ... its a nite where we newbies hv to embarass ourselves infront of all those seniors in order to entertaint them ..... stupid rite .... haih ... but we cant disobey them .... cuz u wont noe n u wont want to noe the consequences of disobeying them ... haha .....!!
I kinda miss my life in matric .... at there is more free .... who says UNi life is fun .... its not fun ... hearing lecture to lecture 2 chapter in one hr .... can u imagine how fast the speed is .... n we dunt hv any reference also .... haih ... dunnoe how to do my revision also !! so kekxim
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Dear diaries 7
dear diaries ......
well .... 2 more days im going to start my new life ..... im really looking forward ..... Uni life .... i hope i can make new frens there .... n i really hope everything will go smoothly ..... no more betraying ... no backstabbing ..... no more bad rumors.... n last but not least ... NO MORE EMOING .... haha ....
Im here to thanks a fren of mine .... i appreciate her help .... really .... I'm happy there's a person there to let me split out things ..... to be my listener ..... thanks a lot ..... i wish that all of my frens can be happy forever .... M can get over from her problem although it might take some tym ... C can be successful .... S can score her examination with flying colours .... haha .....
I wanna apologize to somebody too ... actually i dunt mean to avoid you ..... i really wanna reply ur sms or ur nudge .... but everytym when i reply u wont really reply me back ....its hard for me to reply ur sms but over the other side ur not there waiting for my reply ..... i really dunnoe u ..... u have lots of ppl u can sms with .... so it doesnt matter that i didnt reply ur msg .... u can still find others .... there are dozens of gals waiting for ur msg ..... so dunt scold me for not replying u ..... cuz u always didnt reply me when i reply u ... understand !!! well...... i think u will nvr ever see this post .... just wanna spread out my tak puas hati here !!
well .... 2 more days im going to start my new life ..... im really looking forward ..... Uni life .... i hope i can make new frens there .... n i really hope everything will go smoothly ..... no more betraying ... no backstabbing ..... no more bad rumors.... n last but not least ... NO MORE EMOING .... haha ....
Im here to thanks a fren of mine .... i appreciate her help .... really .... I'm happy there's a person there to let me split out things ..... to be my listener ..... thanks a lot ..... i wish that all of my frens can be happy forever .... M can get over from her problem although it might take some tym ... C can be successful .... S can score her examination with flying colours .... haha .....
I wanna apologize to somebody too ... actually i dunt mean to avoid you ..... i really wanna reply ur sms or ur nudge .... but everytym when i reply u wont really reply me back ....its hard for me to reply ur sms but over the other side ur not there waiting for my reply ..... i really dunnoe u ..... u have lots of ppl u can sms with .... so it doesnt matter that i didnt reply ur msg .... u can still find others .... there are dozens of gals waiting for ur msg ..... so dunt scold me for not replying u ..... cuz u always didnt reply me when i reply u ... understand !!! well...... i think u will nvr ever see this post .... just wanna spread out my tak puas hati here !!
Friday, June 25, 2010
Dear diaries 6
Dear diaries ......
today im gonna reveal the real me ..... the emo side of me .... yesterday was a very complicated day .... im happy n sad /emo at the same tym ..... yesterday ..... i accidentally knew about the truth that i wish i will nvr ever noe if im given a choice !! it hurts ..... it really hurts .... it makes me dunt believe frenship anymore .... Y ...? Y must i know this ugly truth ! I'm suppose to enter U with all those gd memories with u .... but now .... u spoil it ...... i wanna be clear in my diaries ..... but can i really do it ....? im scared .... n i dunt have to confident to do it ....there are still ppl who spread bad rumors about me ..... it really hurts me .... it's tired to always keep things to myself ..... sumtym i really hope got some one that can let me spread out everything inside my heart n just let me cry out loud for an hour or even more ...... the person i hope for do appear but y must it be him ? y is he always the 1st to notice im sad im emo im mad n wat so eva ....... n he's always the only one to comfort me ..... telling me dunt be sad dunt be angry ..... n smsed me those lame jokes to make me smile ..... It's gd that there is still such ppl staying by my side ..... but ..... haih .....!!
keeping secrets aren't easy ...... im sick of keeping things to myself .... sometimes i wanted to tell him wat happen but i just cant express it out ..... M have C and K , who do i have ? S ? i noe S well ..... telling her these things will only make her to suffer .... so i cant really tell her sumtym .... but she's really gd to me !! i luv u S ..... i think u r the only close fren left to me ..... the only person in malacca that i can still chat for a long tym without stopping !! i appreciate it !!
I remembered i told K & M that if anything happen u can always talk to me ..... somehow i wish they will also said back that if u got anything we r always there to talk to u ...... I'm always the gd listener n a gd counselor ..... but i need a listener too ..... this is the 1st tym I"m writing so many emo stuff .... with 2 roll of tears cuming out from my eyes .... I seek for K's help be4 when im in matric ..... i dunnoe y i will sms her ..... but when i on my phone .... she's the only one in the contact list that i can smsed ..... i dunnoe wat happen to me ..... at the tym my only fren in matric left me ..... it's a tough nite for me ..... i cried for the whole night untill my roomate come n comfort me ..... i smsed her n spread my feelings out ...... actually kinda sad to disturb her ..... I'm sorry again K .... when facing ezam stress also .... i smsed her sumthing stupid ..... why m i always sms her i also dunnoe ..... maybe i trust her .... maybe i always help her n now i wanted her to help me too ..... I'm really sry to always disturb her ..... haih .....
today im gonna reveal the real me ..... the emo side of me .... yesterday was a very complicated day .... im happy n sad /emo at the same tym ..... yesterday ..... i accidentally knew about the truth that i wish i will nvr ever noe if im given a choice !! it hurts ..... it really hurts .... it makes me dunt believe frenship anymore .... Y ...? Y must i know this ugly truth ! I'm suppose to enter U with all those gd memories with u .... but now .... u spoil it ...... i wanna be clear in my diaries ..... but can i really do it ....? im scared .... n i dunt have to confident to do it ....there are still ppl who spread bad rumors about me ..... it really hurts me .... it's tired to always keep things to myself ..... sumtym i really hope got some one that can let me spread out everything inside my heart n just let me cry out loud for an hour or even more ...... the person i hope for do appear but y must it be him ? y is he always the 1st to notice im sad im emo im mad n wat so eva ....... n he's always the only one to comfort me ..... telling me dunt be sad dunt be angry ..... n smsed me those lame jokes to make me smile ..... It's gd that there is still such ppl staying by my side ..... but ..... haih .....!!
keeping secrets aren't easy ...... im sick of keeping things to myself .... sometimes i wanted to tell him wat happen but i just cant express it out ..... M have C and K , who do i have ? S ? i noe S well ..... telling her these things will only make her to suffer .... so i cant really tell her sumtym .... but she's really gd to me !! i luv u S ..... i think u r the only close fren left to me ..... the only person in malacca that i can still chat for a long tym without stopping !! i appreciate it !!
I remembered i told K & M that if anything happen u can always talk to me ..... somehow i wish they will also said back that if u got anything we r always there to talk to u ...... I'm always the gd listener n a gd counselor ..... but i need a listener too ..... this is the 1st tym I"m writing so many emo stuff .... with 2 roll of tears cuming out from my eyes .... I seek for K's help be4 when im in matric ..... i dunnoe y i will sms her ..... but when i on my phone .... she's the only one in the contact list that i can smsed ..... i dunnoe wat happen to me ..... at the tym my only fren in matric left me ..... it's a tough nite for me ..... i cried for the whole night untill my roomate come n comfort me ..... i smsed her n spread my feelings out ...... actually kinda sad to disturb her ..... I'm sorry again K .... when facing ezam stress also .... i smsed her sumthing stupid ..... why m i always sms her i also dunnoe ..... maybe i trust her .... maybe i always help her n now i wanted her to help me too ..... I'm really sry to always disturb her ..... haih .....
也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药.....
now i only now how hurt is this lyrics ........ time can cure sum of the problem im facing .... but it also leads me to another disaster ...... from the ugly truth i noe yesterday ..... maybe i should stop going KTV ..... singing suppose to be a great thing which bring good memories to me .... but now it changes ...... it's no more happy memories .... ！！Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Dear diaries 5
Dear diaries .....
I'm here again to update my blog ...... arh .... went for medical checkup just now ...... n i got shocked at there ..... I'm only 150cm ....omg ..... so short ..... omg ..... haih ..... n i gain weight ady .... 45.5 kg .... in just 2 months tym i gain 1.5kg .... omg ..... i need to control my diet ady lah ..... must lose weight ..... stupid medical checkup .... it let be realise im SHORT N FAT ..... just lyk dwarf !! haih .....
this checkup requires to do urine test .... so .... haha .... i hv to pee to the correct place ..... hahaha ....sounds very geli rite ..... hv to take the small bottle .... aim to that side n start collecting ur own urine ..... haha ..... the doctor said : well..... ur body is healthy .... ur respiratory system , excretory system , nervous system all normal .... ( of cuz normal la .... if nervous system abnormal i wont be here loh ....) but u have a very concentrated urine ...... so drink more water .... then i answered : haha .... i noe my urine is concentrated cuz for the whole morning i didnt drink water .....i went for the X ray early in the morning n staright away cum here so no water to drink ..... then the doctor laugh .... haha ...
another funny thing happen was at the radiotherapy center at putra hospital where i have my X ray test ...... the therapist asked me some questions which i think its funny .... 1st she asked how old m i .... i answered : 19 .... then she asked when did ur period come ? well.... i fee weird when she asked lyk that cuz wats the relationship of when ur menstruation come with this X ray thingy .... but i answered : form 1 .... then she smile n correct her question again .... the question is when did ur last period come ? ... then i was lyk ..... ^O^ I answered : last month .... then therapist asked again : u confirm u r not pregnant ? .... i was lyk ....@@ of cuz im not pregnant lah ..... haiyo ... pregnant woman knot do Xray wan mah ..... haiyo .... plus my period got come loh .... haiyo.... swt man ......
after that went to open bank account .... Bank ISLAM .... omg .... so many ppl queuing to open account ..... plus I saw a few seniors from pay fong 2 wan ..... i noe them but they dunnoe me .... haha .... they going the same U as me .... omg .... i cant really believe it .... haha ... now i really feel F6 is a waste of tym .... cuz those seniors going to be coursemate with me .... wahaha ....it's weird dude !!but hor .... this bank islam very small leh .... n whole malacca only one branch ... omg .... so squeeze inside .... haha .... u can see everybody holding the application form n starting to find a place to fill up the form .... luckily im smart enough to bring a pen myself ... no need to wait for the bank punya pen .... hahaha .....!!
I'm here again to update my blog ...... arh .... went for medical checkup just now ...... n i got shocked at there ..... I'm only 150cm ....omg ..... so short ..... omg ..... haih ..... n i gain weight ady .... 45.5 kg .... in just 2 months tym i gain 1.5kg .... omg ..... i need to control my diet ady lah ..... must lose weight ..... stupid medical checkup .... it let be realise im SHORT N FAT ..... just lyk dwarf !! haih .....
this checkup requires to do urine test .... so .... haha .... i hv to pee to the correct place ..... hahaha ....sounds very geli rite ..... hv to take the small bottle .... aim to that side n start collecting ur own urine ..... haha ..... the doctor said : well..... ur body is healthy .... ur respiratory system , excretory system , nervous system all normal .... ( of cuz normal la .... if nervous system abnormal i wont be here loh ....) but u have a very concentrated urine ...... so drink more water .... then i answered : haha .... i noe my urine is concentrated cuz for the whole morning i didnt drink water .....i went for the X ray early in the morning n staright away cum here so no water to drink ..... then the doctor laugh .... haha ...
another funny thing happen was at the radiotherapy center at putra hospital where i have my X ray test ...... the therapist asked me some questions which i think its funny .... 1st she asked how old m i .... i answered : 19 .... then she asked when did ur period come ? well.... i fee weird when she asked lyk that cuz wats the relationship of when ur menstruation come with this X ray thingy .... but i answered : form 1 .... then she smile n correct her question again .... the question is when did ur last period come ? ... then i was lyk ..... ^O^ I answered : last month .... then therapist asked again : u confirm u r not pregnant ? .... i was lyk ....@@ of cuz im not pregnant lah ..... haiyo ... pregnant woman knot do Xray wan mah ..... haiyo .... plus my period got come loh .... haiyo.... swt man ......
after that went to open bank account .... Bank ISLAM .... omg .... so many ppl queuing to open account ..... plus I saw a few seniors from pay fong 2 wan ..... i noe them but they dunnoe me .... haha .... they going the same U as me .... omg .... i cant really believe it .... haha ... now i really feel F6 is a waste of tym .... cuz those seniors going to be coursemate with me .... wahaha ....it's weird dude !!but hor .... this bank islam very small leh .... n whole malacca only one branch ... omg .... so squeeze inside .... haha .... u can see everybody holding the application form n starting to find a place to fill up the form .... luckily im smart enough to bring a pen myself ... no need to wait for the bank punya pen .... hahaha .....!!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Dear diaries 4
Dear diaries .....
well..... im starting a new life soon ....going for Uni for my tertiary education .... and there's a lot to prepare ..... i wanted to bring everything NEW to my U but i cant afford it ..... haih ... too bad rite ? Today i packed sum of my clothes to UKM according to the dress code they given which are : 2 or 3 BLUE is a must, for entering lecture hall ... smart casual is ok .... SMART CASUAL as in collar T with long pants ( jeans r not so allowed according to my senior ) ..... n here's my packing result ..... i search for my whole cupboard n i noticed that i dunt have any suitable collar blouse to wear for lecture .... cuz all my blouse are round neck wan plus others are sleeveless ..... others collar T r my PJ attire at kmp ..... hahaha .... and for long pants ..... well.... i only have jeansssss...... omg ..... haha .... for the BLUE kurung .... i need to buy it .... so means i need to buy clothessssss for my Uni life .....
besides packing, i have to go for medical checkup 2mr .... haih .... why does this U need to do medical check up .... it's a waste of money .... need to pay for X ray lagi .... haih .... i need lots of money now !!!! summore i think UKM is the only U that need to do medical checkup ..... haih ..... it's unnecessary lah .... waste my money only !! I have to open another bank account again ..... this tym is bank islam .... haha .....i think i got lots of account ady ... my godness .....
well..... im starting a new life soon ....going for Uni for my tertiary education .... and there's a lot to prepare ..... i wanted to bring everything NEW to my U but i cant afford it ..... haih ... too bad rite ? Today i packed sum of my clothes to UKM according to the dress code they given which are : 2 or 3 BLUE is a must, for entering lecture hall ... smart casual is ok .... SMART CASUAL as in collar T with long pants ( jeans r not so allowed according to my senior ) ..... n here's my packing result ..... i search for my whole cupboard n i noticed that i dunt have any suitable collar blouse to wear for lecture .... cuz all my blouse are round neck wan plus others are sleeveless ..... others collar T r my PJ attire at kmp ..... hahaha .... and for long pants ..... well.... i only have jeansssss...... omg ..... haha .... for the BLUE kurung .... i need to buy it .... so means i need to buy clothessssss for my Uni life .....
besides packing, i have to go for medical checkup 2mr .... haih .... why does this U need to do medical check up .... it's a waste of money .... need to pay for X ray lagi .... haih .... i need lots of money now !!!! summore i think UKM is the only U that need to do medical checkup ..... haih ..... it's unnecessary lah .... waste my money only !! I have to open another bank account again ..... this tym is bank islam .... haha .....i think i got lots of account ady ... my godness .....
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Dear diaries 3
Dear diaries ......
Yesterday i spend a nite at JY new hs alone ..... at 1st i tot she will be going to stay at her new hs but she ends up slping in her old hs .... so i slept in her room alone .... im lucky that i brought my lappy with me for the entertainment at there .... n today we celebrated grandma's birthday buy having a BIG FAMILY steamboat lunch n dinner .... haha .... its fun that we ate the whole day .......haha ...
my AS fren just went back a few hours ago .... feel sry to him as he come malacca to meet us n i just got to go out with him for one day ..... hope he enjoy his trip well ..... he's a weird fren i think ..... weird for me .... haha .... 1st person i met that lyks to go museum ..... haha ....he left a parcel at rx's hs n that 's for me .... haih ... i didnt even buy things for him n yet he bought me sumthing ..... i feel so bad lah ..... kekxim .....he's really a nice fren .... haha .... kmp's life are the best esp when we r preparing things n performances for the pesta yuen celebration ..... i just cant forget those sweet memories ..... n i missed it so much !!
today i read sum article from FB .... they r quite meaningful for me ....well...sumtym i just hate that ppl's article can reflect my life .....I'm in a dilemma now ..... shall I keep avoiding his msg ? shall i reply it ? but i really dislyk the feeling that when i reply his msg n he didnt reply me at all ..... that feeling sucksssss ..... i would rather avoid him n let him scold me for not replying his msg during the next tym he sms me ..... haih ..... he's going um n I'm going ukm .... 2 schools are quite near to each other .... haha .... he still owe me 1 starbucks n 1 cornetto ice cream haha ..... maybe i should change the cornetto to baskin robbin since he's damn rich !!it's a gd chance to take back my starbucks n ice cream .... half of the kmp chinese students are going um n ukm .... haha .... I'm looking forward for another kmp-ians reunion in KL .... it will be fun !!
Yesterday i spend a nite at JY new hs alone ..... at 1st i tot she will be going to stay at her new hs but she ends up slping in her old hs .... so i slept in her room alone .... im lucky that i brought my lappy with me for the entertainment at there .... n today we celebrated grandma's birthday buy having a BIG FAMILY steamboat lunch n dinner .... haha .... its fun that we ate the whole day .......haha ...
my AS fren just went back a few hours ago .... feel sry to him as he come malacca to meet us n i just got to go out with him for one day ..... hope he enjoy his trip well ..... he's a weird fren i think ..... weird for me .... haha .... 1st person i met that lyks to go museum ..... haha ....he left a parcel at rx's hs n that 's for me .... haih ... i didnt even buy things for him n yet he bought me sumthing ..... i feel so bad lah ..... kekxim .....he's really a nice fren .... haha .... kmp's life are the best esp when we r preparing things n performances for the pesta yuen celebration ..... i just cant forget those sweet memories ..... n i missed it so much !!
today i read sum article from FB .... they r quite meaningful for me ....well...sumtym i just hate that ppl's article can reflect my life .....I'm in a dilemma now ..... shall I keep avoiding his msg ? shall i reply it ? but i really dislyk the feeling that when i reply his msg n he didnt reply me at all ..... that feeling sucksssss ..... i would rather avoid him n let him scold me for not replying his msg during the next tym he sms me ..... haih ..... he's going um n I'm going ukm .... 2 schools are quite near to each other .... haha .... he still owe me 1 starbucks n 1 cornetto ice cream haha ..... maybe i should change the cornetto to baskin robbin since he's damn rich !!it's a gd chance to take back my starbucks n ice cream .... half of the kmp chinese students are going um n ukm .... haha .... I'm looking forward for another kmp-ians reunion in KL .... it will be fun !!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Dear diaries 2
Dear diaries ....
It's been a while that i didnt update my blog .... I planned to update it everyday but it seems that i failed to do so ..... sumtym I'm lazy to post wateva happen to me....sumtym i feel i cant really express myself out properly ..... why is it so .... well maybe its becuz there's a lot of things happen all in a tym that i cant really remember it ..... or im escaping from facing the problem that i hv to solve ....
I'm being offered to go UKM to further my studies .... taking the course that i wanted so much ..... this is the 1st tym that i noe whats the taste of tears of joy ..... it's sweet !! haha ..... It's lucky for me to hv the course i want ..... as sum of my fren only got the 4th or 5th choice which are less prefered ....n now I'm a step closer to my dream !! may god bless me !!
It's been a while that i didnt update my blog .... I planned to update it everyday but it seems that i failed to do so ..... sumtym I'm lazy to post wateva happen to me....sumtym i feel i cant really express myself out properly ..... why is it so .... well maybe its becuz there's a lot of things happen all in a tym that i cant really remember it ..... or im escaping from facing the problem that i hv to solve ....
I'm being offered to go UKM to further my studies .... taking the course that i wanted so much ..... this is the 1st tym that i noe whats the taste of tears of joy ..... it's sweet !! haha ..... It's lucky for me to hv the course i want ..... as sum of my fren only got the 4th or 5th choice which are less prefered ....n now I'm a step closer to my dream !! may god bless me !!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Dear diaries 1
Dear diaries ...
I've decided to change my blog appearance .... changing a new layout , a new background colour and a new theme ... actually i wanted to close my this blog n start with a new blog page , but it will be a waste since most of my stories are here.
Time flies. it's ady half a year n i discovered that this year there's ntg special about me ....although i scored my examination well but it doesnt make me happy at all ... i dunnoe wat's the reason that i'm not happy with my FLAT ... haih ... coming back from perlis suppose to be a great thing but now i felt that staying at perlis is FUN except all those racist discrimination.... i'm sad that my relationship between certain frenz had changed .... we r not that close anymore ....well, it's gd to say that luckily i still hv certain ppl as my so called "close fren " ..... well.... r they really my close fren ? thats a question to me also .... i cant confirm they are really my close fren or not ... but untill now we still keep in touch .... nobody call me to hang out with them .... well ... all i did was just go out with ah ne .... n it's only one tym !! ah ne .... thanks a lot ...it's fun to hang out with u after ur ezam ...i'm looking forward to hang out with cy too ... haha ... sing K ....
there's still a lot of things i wanna spread out at here .....sumtym being a scorpion is not that easy .... haih .... !!
I've decided to change my blog appearance .... changing a new layout , a new background colour and a new theme ... actually i wanted to close my this blog n start with a new blog page , but it will be a waste since most of my stories are here.
Time flies. it's ady half a year n i discovered that this year there's ntg special about me ....although i scored my examination well but it doesnt make me happy at all ... i dunnoe wat's the reason that i'm not happy with my FLAT ... haih ... coming back from perlis suppose to be a great thing but now i felt that staying at perlis is FUN except all those racist discrimination.... i'm sad that my relationship between certain frenz had changed .... we r not that close anymore ....well, it's gd to say that luckily i still hv certain ppl as my so called "close fren " ..... well.... r they really my close fren ? thats a question to me also .... i cant confirm they are really my close fren or not ... but untill now we still keep in touch .... nobody call me to hang out with them .... well ... all i did was just go out with ah ne .... n it's only one tym !! ah ne .... thanks a lot ...it's fun to hang out with u after ur ezam ...i'm looking forward to hang out with cy too ... haha ... sing K ....
there's still a lot of things i wanna spread out at here .....sumtym being a scorpion is not that easy .... haih .... !!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
一个人很好！！
街 挤满了欢笑.....
不适合眼泪来凑热闹
跑 不停寻找.....
一个无人的转角
不优雅的时候 还是一个人就好
爱 什么时候能说退就退？
我松开手， 回忆却没能随风飘走......
为什么 越相信谁能依靠
越换来一次次的灵魂寂寥？
有没有永远不会再让心绝望的解药？
不适合眼泪来凑热闹
跑 不停寻找.....
一个无人的转角
不优雅的时候 还是一个人就好
爱 什么时候能说退就退？
我松开手， 回忆却没能随风飘走......
为什么 越相信谁能依靠
越换来一次次的灵魂寂寥？
有没有永远不会再让心绝望的解药？
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
.. .-- .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . - ..- --. ---
Some say it’s not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen
When you have a fight with her
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Trying to hide
You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy
Now I have no more tears left to cry
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
But .. .-- .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . - ..- --. --- !!
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen
When you have a fight with her
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Trying to hide
You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy
Now I have no more tears left to cry
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
But .. .-- .. .-.. .-.. .-.. . - ..- --. --- !!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
无标题！！
“娘” ，“干吗" , “没事，只是想撒娇！” ，“无聊” ，
这是我和他sms时必说的对话，
他为什么叫我娘？
哈哈， 想起来很好笑也很讽刺，
他说在我身上找到妈妈疼儿子的感觉，
在我看来也许是他每次感情受挫的时候都回来找我聊天寻求安慰！
而我总是很自然的给了他想要的答案....
做别人的感情顾问真的很累，
有时候真的不想干涉他俩的事，
可是他总是把我拉进他的感情生活里，
我清楚他是个怎样的人，
但是我总是没办法拒绝他，
我讨厌他的甜言蜜语，讨厌他的吊儿郎当，
讨厌他总是知道我心里在想什么！！
“你去忙吧，我不想打扰你！”
这是我想与他结束对话时长套用的句子！
而他的回答总是“你没打扰我，是我先找你聊天的，所以我现在很多时间”， “我其实并不忙”， “在聊一会儿啦！”.....
而我最终还是被他挽留下来继续聊天！
记得考试时的study week 我几乎每天都在和他sms， 有时还聊到半夜2点多！
每次都是我喊他去读书时他才乖乖的不来找我，
他从来都不叫我的名字，
有时我曾怀疑它到底懂不懂我的名字，
他都叫我“蛇，蛇妖， 蛇精，老妈， 娘，蛇哥...."
而我总叫他“死老虎，乖儿子，不孝子...."
很奇怪的相处方式， 不过也很特别！！
离开学校后，
我们还有联络，
不过，这次我下定决心要淡忘他，
所以加油吧俐雯，不要每次回他的短讯！！
也不要在喜欢他，
虽然他曾是在你最潦倒的时候挺身而出救你的那位，
虽然他曾是在你难过时第一个发现及给予安慰的那位，
这是我和他sms时必说的对话，
他为什么叫我娘？
哈哈， 想起来很好笑也很讽刺，
他说在我身上找到妈妈疼儿子的感觉，
在我看来也许是他每次感情受挫的时候都回来找我聊天寻求安慰！
而我总是很自然的给了他想要的答案....
做别人的感情顾问真的很累，
有时候真的不想干涉他俩的事，
可是他总是把我拉进他的感情生活里，
我清楚他是个怎样的人，
但是我总是没办法拒绝他，
我讨厌他的甜言蜜语，讨厌他的吊儿郎当，
讨厌他总是知道我心里在想什么！！
“你去忙吧，我不想打扰你！”
这是我想与他结束对话时长套用的句子！
而他的回答总是“你没打扰我，是我先找你聊天的，所以我现在很多时间”， “我其实并不忙”， “在聊一会儿啦！”.....
而我最终还是被他挽留下来继续聊天！
记得考试时的study week 我几乎每天都在和他sms， 有时还聊到半夜2点多！
每次都是我喊他去读书时他才乖乖的不来找我，
他从来都不叫我的名字，
有时我曾怀疑它到底懂不懂我的名字，
他都叫我“蛇，蛇妖， 蛇精，老妈， 娘，蛇哥...."
而我总叫他“死老虎，乖儿子，不孝子...."
很奇怪的相处方式， 不过也很特别！！
离开学校后，
我们还有联络，
不过，这次我下定决心要淡忘他，
所以加油吧俐雯，不要每次回他的短讯！！
也不要在喜欢他，
虽然他曾是在你最潦倒的时候挺身而出救你的那位，
虽然他曾是在你难过时第一个发现及给予安慰的那位，
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